Rickey Benns Blog

Wow!  What a question?  It is certainly a question worth exploring.

A better question may be who is God not?

How do you describe the indescribable?  How do speak about the unspeakable? How do you know the unknowable?  How do you talk about “All That Is?”

What Buddha God?  What Krishna God? Was Jesus God? Was Mohammad God?  Some would argue that the answer is “yes” to all of the above.

Is the question Who Is God even a good question?

Just imagine we started to have a conversation about the very question stated above when would the conversation end?  Every time one of us got up to leave someone would utter “hey come on back because I’m not through.”

If you are the ball how to you experience yourself as being the ball?  I mean how does  All Of It experience itself? How does God experience herself?

Bad boy Rickey.  You just got the blasphemous slap because you referred to God as a she.  Well wouldn’t she fall under the category of All Of It?  hmmmmmm….

I will use the word God and All Of It interchangeably because people are so emotionally charged when the word God is mentioned that I will endeavor to make it a bit more light-hearted.

OK  back to the story. I only know of one way for All Of It to experience herself and that is through others.  In order for All Of It to experience itself, herself, the self, All Of It must do it through me and through you.

Now All Of It was no dummy.  All Of It knew that the more you realized who you are the more she would realize who she was.  She could just sit back in her lounge chair in sky land and say, “How wondrous thou art.”

Yeah, the phrase “Ye Are Gods” was meant literally.  Yes, you and me are God godding.  We are what God is thinking.  We are what God is believing.  We are what God is seeing.  We are what God is feeling.  No more and no less.

Here’s the bonus.  All Of It always gives you bonuses that’s just the way she rolls.  The only way we can truly know ourselves is through All Of It.  There is no other path.  Many a man and whoa-man before you have unsuccessfully tried to circumvent the path only to find themselves on the road again that leads to All Of It.

So what you get to experience is what I call the Cosmic Dance Of Life.  God lives through you and you live through God.  How sweet is that?

You are discovering things about God everyday as you discover truths about yourself.  You can never know fully who God is just as you can never completely know the depths of who you are.

It’s the ultimate game of life where’s there’s no beginning and no end.

So who is God?

I’m not sure but I’m waiting on your input.  I’m waiting on you to decide who you’re gonna Be today.  So get to Godding.

When you pull back the curtains on all the heartache that we tend to experience is love lurking in the background?

Is that angry parent or fire-breathing lover just trying to say they love you in the only way they know how?

On June 30, 2009 my aunt died at the age of 73.  This was my mom’s last living sister.  When I got a phone call from my cousin I intuitively knew what the prognosis of my aunt’s outcome.  Before I returned the call to my cousin I reflected on my last visit to my Aunt’s home.  I remember toying with the idea of should I go by there to see her or should I not.

Something deep inside of me told me to go visit her.  Keep in mind I hadn’t seen her in years.  When I called her on the phone to ask if I could drop by on such notice she without hesitation said, “Come on by.”

Do you know how sweet those words sounded to me?  Well let’s just say I felt truly loved in that instant.

I went over to her house and she was not in very good health but she was still smiling.  I could see the light of God in her eyes.  I am glad that I made the decision to go by and see her because that would be my last time seeing her alive.

She and my uncle were married 54 years.  Can you believe that two people can be together for such a long time?  In fact, their phone number is the only number I know from memory because it never changed.

I love my Aunt Dorothy.  She was a nurse and I remember her educating me on the correct words for my physical apparatus at an early age.  She told me that it was penis for male and vagina for female.

I have since come to know those terms on an entirely different level but she was the first one to share the truth with me about my sexuality at a very young age.

I believe love is all there is.  I believe that when you strip away all the hurt, pain and disappoint love is standing before you with open arms.  I believe that love never changes.  I believe that love is patient.  I believe that love heals all wounds.  I believe that my Aunt Dorothy was the personification of love.

I wept when I heard the news.  I will miss her and this is the inspiration for me starting this blog.  I don’t want to waste another minute sharing my love.  The best way that I know to do it is to share my thoughts.