I believe it was Cedric The Entertainer that first coined the phrase “This Ain’t What You Want.” Last night I realized just how profound his statement is although intended in a very comedic way. Here’s a big realization, what you want is what you got. (forgive me English teachers) That’s worth repeating, what you want is what you got. Look around you and see if that isn’t so.
Now the mind will delude you into believing otherwise. The mind will trick you into believing that you really want something that you do not have. Here’s the breakdown. You are everything-literally. There is nothing in the universe that is not you. Each moment to moment you are choosing what part of everything you wish to experience. Most of the choices are quite are unconscious yet they are choices none the same. You can have anything out of everything that you want but you can’t have everything. Once you make a choice for something out everything the rest of your everything collapse until you choose again.
You say you want a better relationship with God but are your actions aren’t congruent with having such a relationship? I’m not talking about showing up in church every Sunday with your big church hat on hooping and hollering. I’m referring to tangible acts of demonstration. How do you act and treat others and yourself when your not in the lord’s house? Improving your relationship with God ain’t what you want.
You say you want more money but you are more of a consumer than you are a producer. You don’t pay your debts on time. You have little to no savings. You spend time watching TV when you could spend the other eight hours working to change your financial insolvency. You don’t save at least 10% of your gross. You finance your vehicles for 60 and 72 months so you can floss to your friends who you don’t even like. Wealth ain’t what you want.
You say you want better and more satisfying sex but you are unwilling to even get out of the missionary position. When’s the last time you really back it up? You view some acts of sex vile and nasty while your spouses creep around and get those same services performed from the willing. You go to bed each night like you’ve been working in a cold mine (men) or you’re getting ready to pose for an Aunt Jemima shoot (women). Justin Timberlake even makes a song about it “I’m bringing sexy back” and you still don’t get it. Good sex ain’t what you want.
You say you want more love but you are quite unloving. You always think that when someone speaks to you they have a hidden agenda or ulterior motive. You walk through the day like no one would play with you at recess. Someone extends love and you block it like a defensive lineman. You fail to realize that the love which you seek yourself you must give to another. Love ain’t what you want.
All I’m saying is the first line of defense in getting better is telling yourself the truth. Quit lying and saying that you want something that you don’t have because it only keeps you eternally in that place. I’ve been lying to myself for decades and that’s why I recognize it in others. What I want is what I got. When I want something different then I’ll have it. In the meantime I’m going to be honest with myself and say “Rickey, this ain’t what you want.
That’s my spin on it.
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Let's see if I understand you correctly. You're saying that what I want is what I already have? And if there is something that I say I want and I don't have it…it ain't what I want? Hmmmmm. This is certainly 'food for thought'. I could not agree more. There is nothing, ABSOLUTELY nothing outside of who I am. Therefore, I must be (and possess) EVERYTHING. Perhaps the key to it all is realizing that I AM IT ALL awwwwwready!!!!! Besides the wanting of a thing, just keeps me wanting.
J-licious
Wanting always gives you the experience of not having. If you had it why would you be wanting it?
You are EVERYTHING! Believe that.